I cannot believe its been almost a month and I didnt write anything in my blog. All these days I could have written down pages of drama which went on during my stay here at FOB Pasab. Yes, I am counting my days now until I head back to KAF. I feel that I have done enough and its time to go home now. Also, when one sees that people are getting aggitated on smallest matters which involves food, its time to go.
I totally forgot to mention one of the most amazing facts of Kandahar, Afghanistan and that is the night scene. Besides the firing of big guns and feeling its thumping right in the heart, there is no need of light after midnight. I had noticed every night there is no clouds and full moon/half moon will emit enough light to see every stone on the ground. It is so beautiful and romantic. I have never seen anything like that in my entire life where almost 3 months had passed and I havent seen clouds/sand storms or any other climatic changes. The bad thing is even if I want to be without uniform, I cannot pull it off because somebody will see me.
My patient load is decreasing day by day because of Ramadan. All the devotees are fasting or suppose to be fasting. I have seen some fakers but some do it religiously. The policies were changed by the command in order to respect the faith of the host country natives. As mentioned earlier the thumping of the big guns and loud roars of hellicoptors are still keeping me up every night. I wonder if I am going to have any sleeping problems when I get home to my family.
Before I felt the need to exaust me and see every individual who might need my help. But for some reason due to the response of some of the jealous folks in my unit, I have decided to slow down a little. Afterall, people who take it easy or exaust themselves gets same kind of respect/honor right before they go home. But that doesnt mean I stopped caring, I just dont feel the need to drag me to exaustion no more.
It is an interesting feeling when one knows that the time to go home is coming real close. This is when I feel that no matter what happens it would be horrible if I die while doing my mission. But then again life/death is in the hands of AkalPurakh. I hope I get to see my beautiful wife and enjoy her calm and soothing company.
